Recently, I realise jonna become bitchy and bian tai. Dunno and I dont want to know what happened to her in aust. So freaky, I wonder will I be like her after I go over??? Hmmm..
Anyway, we were at Bugis sitting down to talk alot of craps and we are going to run out of topic to crap. (Jonna say so la, but I seriously have doubt about her cause she has been talking alot since noon.) What to do, In singapore, I think people only talk crap and camwhore. Hai, I feel like a lifejacket, now kelly lying on me. Humpf, don’t have jeff to rest on, now come seduce me. Too bad, I am not aroused by udon. Yawn, I guess you guys know that I am bored. By the way, Jonna say something about someone that sound wrong. Ok, I should not exposed her evil thoughts. Australia really changes her, I want that old Jonna, but wait, She been like that all along just that it is from bad to worst. Ya, I think so.
Yes, I am bored.
If you want something, you ought to sacrifice something in return.
Being alone is not a bad thing after all. You can give some quality time to yourself by doing some upgrade to your current life. Like reading up book, doing reflection and improving on my drawing. However, in my case. Being alone is at my least of the choices.
Well, I had been alone in camp for the past few days. Watching some drama series like Coffee Prince and drawing some logo for my portfolio. Darn, I should better start doing my portfolio right now before I ORD in June. OK, too random. I feel that I am those kind of people that can’t be live alone. I need at least some social conservation to keep my brain working and most importantly, I am a people-oriented person. Hence, ask me to shut my mouth up and stone in front of computer (Unless I have thing to do) is impossible. (Wait, I think I experience it during my three month attachment at Genometri) OK, bottom line, I don’t know am I going to survive by myself if I decided to go oversea for further studies in 2012. Anyway, these few days, I realised I keep stalking people online. What a freaking habits, I should get a life soon.
Worries and alot of worries for my future, I realised sometime when I doing some stuff I want in life, I need to sacrifice something else. I hope I won’t regret in the future.
It seems like last year I didn’t learn my lesson about giving too much expectation on people. Well, for those who didn’t know what I am talking about. Please read my April blog entry at www.jxheavendiary.blogspot.com
Sometime, is not I want to expect thing from people. Just that they sort of tell me about the things they wanted to do and you know, the next moment I am disappointed as they didn’t do it. Am I too naive to believe what people told me or I shouldn’t take people passing comment that seriously. Yes, I shouldn’t do that. Or maybe I should don’t care about their promises and hope for the worst? Haiya, I think I just relax and don’t care about it.
I am lying to myself again, I can’t don’t care about thing I cared. Argh~ Don’t expect and you won’t fall that hard.
What is a funny tragic? Jonna asked me that but I realised that I didn’t really explain to her what that. Hmmm, to me, my life is always a drama. Never failed to excited or making me feel sad. Why do I even called it funny tragic? Caused sometime when at the worst moments of your time, your life seems like a joke to others.
Things come and go, when you be nice to someone. People treat you like dirt and don’t even give a damn about you. Once in a blue moon and thing turns worst, they coming back to ask you for help. So what? I am a spare tyres to them? I guess not, so I gonna to don’t care about them and love the people who appreciated me more.
Life is always a bitch, but whether you want to hang out with her or change it. It is your choice after all.
I really have no mood to blog anything. Don’t why, don’t ask me, cause I don’t know how to say.
I think I have gone missing for pretty long enough. Never really updated my blog due to the missing of the iphone and thing like that. Darn, spending new year eve in camp seem to be a idiotic thing to do. Well, I don’t like the feeling being sick in camp, if can go home, I don’t mind. My whole body aching like nobody business. Lol.
2009 seems to be a year of ups and down. One of the year that I experiences lost and helpless. It is also a year filled with fun and crappy stuff happening around me. A year that I gotten over something and now trapped in another. Haha, life is a bitch, isn’t it?
I am sorry, I think i will do a New Year resolution on the 2 Jan or something. I don’t really feel good now. Too tired to do anything now. Oh ya, a happy new year to you guys and hopes everything will be fine in the following year.
